Final Report/Blog- Best friends.

By: Cassie Warren
So I was thinking, what is bioethics exactly…life ethics?

If this is the subject of choice, I think the best thing I can talk about is my life experience with ethics. I grew up in a very structured house, yet with very little structure. I have a sister about five years older than I, and when we were growing up I always wanted to be just like her. I remember I wanted to do everything like her, even dress like her, but my Mother told me she was a horrible person that lied all the time. I was told she was like the devil and not to speak with her. I lived in the same house as my sister yet I remember very little of her growing up. I think a lot of that was because our Mother would lock her in the back room of the house. One day I missed her, so I went up to the door and knocked on it very quietly so I would not get into trouble….“Shanon” I said, “Cassie go away, you know you are not supposed to be talking to me” she replied in a quiet voice. I never understood why my parents loved me and hated my sister.

I knew my Mother had a weight problem, but only because, like a lot of parents, she would complain about her weight infront of me. She bought a gym membership when I was about 10, and while she was working out I would go into the nursery and play with the other children. I was homeschooled, and never allowed out of the house except in the front yard and where my Mother could see me. Because of my isolation, I never knew I was also overweight. One day at the gym nursery, a little boy who was about eight years old called called me fat. Getting called fat made a huge impression on me- I was embarrassed and ashamed. I remembered something however, that my Mother once told me “if you ever want to lose weight, just don’t eat as much”.So I tried it! I began to eat less, and saw that I was losing weight. So I ate less and less, until I was eating nothing. I had a problem, and went into a deep depression. One day when I overheard my work-aholic Father inquiring my Mother as to why I was not eating anything but a few bites a day for months at a time, she said, “oh, she will eat again once she has lost as much weight as she wants.” I did not understand how someone would willingly allow another to suffer.

When I was twelve, my Mother started to give me about three pills to take every day. I hated taking pills but my Mother made me. When I asked her what they were for, she said “just take them.”I started my period and it was very heavy. She later gave me the bottle of pills and trusted me to keep taking them every day. I read the bottle and it said“GroBust”. In shock that my Mother would be giving me a “sexual pill”, I read the back of the bottle and it said “must be eighteen years or older”. I was very mad.
I stopped taking the pills that day; even though I was very scared my Mother would find out (I pretended I was still taking them). My period went away within 2 months.

I was always a happy child on the outside; No one ever knew me as anything but happy. They always said I was very shy and sweet. I always smiled because someone once told me to smile… they said“smile at everyone you see, because they will smile back-and you will make their day happy!” I thought I was making other people happy, and that made me feel good even though I had not known it for myself and was very alone. When I was twelve, my Grandmother took us to a revival! The pastor talked about God and Jesus. I already knew about them though, because my Mother talked about them and took me to church on a regular basis. This day however, the pastor asked us to give up: give up our wills and dreams and to give our every moves to Jesus. I said ok. I was at my ropes end, I didn’t know anyone who really loved me, and if this pastor was correct, and God really loved me, I would give up everything for Him.

From that second I began to talk to God. I began to ask Him what to do before I did it and He began to teach me things that got me through each day. Everything has been amazing with Him by my side: I have felt His love every second. I am able to forgive my Mom and Dad for any wrongs, and I am able to face the world with a new heart and a true smile. This world is not peaches and cream, and not easy to face, but God has a plan for us, and a purpose so great that we do not understand! The ethics I find in my life are from God, from the Bible. I believe that when people try to find moral ethics by themselves they have no direction. Nonetheless, I hope that no matter what you believe….. you follow it full heartedly because truth is truth, and if you look hard enough you will find it. As Thomas Edison once said after finally inventing the light bulb "I have not failed 1,000 times. I have successfully discovered 1,000 ways to NOT make a light bulb."
So don’t give up looking for the correct answers just because it is difficult or you might mess up, because it is better to try and believe something and mess up, then to believe nothing at all.

And you SHALL seek me, and FIND me, when you shall search for me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13
Thanks for reading. Cassie